SkyTara

Don't call me anymore... I've already run away...

Why would I be angry...? I just... feel sad...

Although I myself chose to keep it a secret...

It hurts so much. My body. My stomach. My abdomen. My mind.

Please be patient so as not to bother anyone.

I can't rely on anyone.

“It got to the point where you cried and I felt absolutely no emotion.”

I can't...

I wish I could just tell you I'm not okay, and ask if you could be with me for a little while.

Yeah I wish I could.

I wish I could.

I wish I could.

I couldn't.

Yeah I couldn't.

You treated me with utmost sincerity. And I too,...

I feel comfortable treating you with such sincerity.

The darker my life becomes, the more I long for my lover to be glorious.

The prospect of him having to hold me every time I cried and lost control was killing me even before it happened.

I want him to get tired of me.

But I loved him too much to say goodbye. How selfish I am!

I'm exhausted...

I don't want these issues to become a shared problem for both of us.

I alone am enough.

Hello, I'm back. Everything's fine.

1.

She said she needed me. She said she was scared.

Is this probably the first time in my life?

I drove for two hours. The sleeve of my raincoat cut into the wound on my wrist.

She hugged me from behind. I think I have to be strong. I have to be strong, to be a source of support.

My mother had no one to rely on...

Except for me.

2.

I am strong.

Even after cutting my wrist, I was still able to drive out at night and get home by 11p.m.

I'm best at this. I'm best at being a source of support.

My mother had no one to rely on...

Except for me, a child who's good at IT, has a stable job, and is the calmest person in the family.

So when she hugged me, I thought, just lean on me.

3.

I got home and collapsed.

This is how depression works.

I worked so hard that both my hands went numb. Even so, I still look fine.

The sunlight was so bright.

But darkness has engulfed my soul.

I want to die.

I don't want to rely on anyone.

4.

"I'm here" is a phrase I really love hearing from my lover. When I was having a depression episode, all I wanted was for him to keep repeating that.

But I didn't dare approach him when his life was so busy...

At least until the 25th.

Sometimes I hope that he can't stand it anymore and will leave me quickly.

5.

I'm tired.

I'm exhausted.

I felt nothing at all.

I'm tired of going out and keep living.

Hai tay tôi run bần bật và cơ thể tôi cũng vậy...

Mỗi khi tôi cố gắng bình tĩnh.

Tôi...

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